(On one hand)









I am SO ridiculously excited! I have prepped for three different graduate programs and never gotten as far as actually going. I’m getting rid of most of my possessions and moving and going to live in a new place and that is so incredibly cool. I’m thrilled to quit my job, not work, vacation, travel around, and pack for the next month.

On the other hand… This is me whenever I think about actually leaving.


And saying goodbye to the people I love (even though it’s temporary).

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It’s ridiculously bittersweet. I keep feeling like I’m dreaming, you know? Like, there is no way the plans I have for next month are actually about to happen to me, rather, they must be happening to someone else. Or maybe I died? Like, awhile ago? And I’m just a ghost and I don’t know it? It’s a weird sensation to describe.

Thursday, I quit my job.
Friday, I move back into my parent’s house
Sunday, I go on vacation.
Tuesday after, I go meet my boyfriend’s family.

August 20, I land in Austin.



stuff and things.

It’s getting colder in Portland.

Thankfully we haven’t hit our wet season yet: the cold is dry and not quite as soaking-into-your-bones-mildewing-your-spirit as they tend to get mid February.

But it IS very cold.

This week I had the tiniest housewarming party ever, in which I got drunk, played Cards against Humanity with some of my closest friends, and took zero photos.

This week I had the world’s best hot dog at Kenny and Zuke’s.

This week I got an electric blanket and took stupid selfies with my giant stuffed lion.

It’s a pretty good week so far.

currently: November

I’m copying RubyBastille and doing her meme thing.
Because I’m busy and crazy and had a bad weekend and can’t talk coherently about one thing for long.

Current Book(s):The Lions of Al-Rassan” by Guy Gavriel Kay. It is good but super long! I keep kind of losing track of the political threads in it, but man, it is super engrossing.
[Most recently read] “House of Many Ways” by Diana Wynne Jones & “Dead Things” by Stephen Blackmoore.

Current Playlist: Studio Killers (usually “Ode to the Bouncer”), Skillex, or lately I’ve been somewhat re-hooked on “Can’t Stop” by Infected Mushroom.

Current Shame-Inducing Guilty Pleasure: Eating dollops of nutella straight from the jar.


Current Color: goldenrod mustard yellow, like the sweater I bought last week!

Current Drink: hot toddies with extra bourbon.

Current Food: Tacos. All day, all the time. Tacos.

Current Favorite Show: OMG So I am totally a stupid hipster when it comes to shows, like it has to be a really bizarre mix “zero suspense” and “tacky design” and “super predictable storylines” to get me into a show. I don’t really understand my bizarre anxiety when it comes to film and TV, but man, I just started watching Miss Fisher’s Murder Mysteries on Netflix and I am HOOKED. The character’s Australian accents are charming, the design is art deco, and the characters are adorable and sweet and I want to hug all of them.

Current Wishlist: A graduate program in the field of my choosing that doesn’t require a thesis that is also offered in Oregon.

Current Needs: Can’t say I need anything right now.

Current Triumphs: Not feeling this one, either.

Current Bane(s) of my Existence: Feelings, uncertainty, spoons of nutella straight from the jar.

Current Indulgence: Being snuggled up in bed with my new stuffed lion, drinking hot toddies with the space heater on.


Current #1 Blessing: i had a terrible, awful, bad, no-good stinky weekend, and two of my awesome friends came over on Monday and brought me dinner and cookie dough and roses and held me while I cried. I’m so thankful for them (and all of my friends) and that I have such a great support group.

Current Slang or Saying: I think I’m straight up still in the “YOU GUYS” phase. Every statement is much better when it’s begun with “YOU GUYS”

Current Outfit: Black pants and leopard print shirt with gold accessories. ALL THE LEOPARD PRINT.

Current Excitement: I leave for Austin in TWO WEEKS!!! I cannot wait to go, it feels so surreal that I’m even going!!

Current Mood: Exhausted and blank, but okay. Good. Productive and focused.


My Saturday, in fake tweets

8am: Sleeping in is the best especially when you dream about being a part of PACIFIC RIM

8:30am: The only thing that sucks about feeding Max now is that he begs for his medicine & drools all over my hands.

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10am: Can’t get enough of My Little Pony.

11am: I would enjoy snuggling with Max more if he farted on me less.


12:30pm: Oh yeah I should probably do laundry I guess?

2pm: I only have like 12 bags that I packed for my week long dogsitting job. I pack too much.

3pm: Mike took me to the library! I had 10 books on hold… (already had 8 on loan)

3:30pm: Oh it’s so nice to come home to… growls from Frumples oh and also poop in the living room, hey that’s nice.

4:00pm: UNPACKINGGGG why do I have so much stuff.

4:10pm: Somehow I managed to wash all of my kleenexes while doing laundry.

5:00pm: BLEACH IS MY FRIENDDDDDDDDDD. And hey, less stinky chacos, awesome!

5:15pm: Hey, eating like five pounds of brownies sounds pretty great!

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5:30pm: Let’s refold everything in my dresser, that also sounds pretty great.

5:50pm: Why did I eat five pounds of brownies that was not great #iamsodumb

6:00pm: I feel sad and my bed is covered in brownie crumbs

6:30pm: Hey, since I’m home, I should write out all of my recipe cards!

7:00pm: My hands hurt. Going to read some Johnny Wander, instead.

7:15pm: Now I wish I drew regularly and could do slice of life comics.

8:30pm: Compromised and wrote a stupid blog post.

Don’t be jealous of my downtime.